This is my first ever post on my first ever blog so I’m a little anxious. Is there such a thing as blogger’s anxiety? I think the anxiety comes from not knowing exactly what to do here. I think it also stems from my being an fairly private person. I normally don’t share a lot of intimate thoughts and feelings with others. New territory all around!
Let me explain how I got here. I am recently retired and thought this might be a way of putting some of my thoughts and experiences down on paper…er, screen as a therapeutic exercise for me and, hopefully, an interesting and enjoyable exercise for you.
Retirement is one of those major life changes like marriage, divorce, having a child, and the death of a loved one. I’m not commenting on the relative joy or sorrow of these experiences, just the level of change they bring about in a life.
I think the change of retirement, as with other major life events, is partially one of loss of identity. Figuring out who and what it is you are now after being something else for a very long time, in my case, over 33 years. The change is not something that happens in a day. The change didn’t happen suddenly for me on October 1st. I think it started way before I actually retired to the time when I started THINKING about retirement. The feelings continued and changed again when I ANNOUNCED my intentions to retire and the feelings have continued to evolve and change through today. It seems to me that it is a process… a process I am still going through.
I’ve included two pictures in this first post (at least I hope I have since I’m working on becoming technically proficient at this also) The first one up top is my employee photo. The person in that photo is, to a large extent, who I have identified with over the last 33 years. The picture below is the basis of this blog. It represents these first steps out into the world to figure out who it is I will become next. You will note that there is no defined path in front of me. I can’t say I know exactly what do do next. It is something that I will have to figure out as I go. This is both extremely exciting and scary as hell.